November 30, 2007

symptomatic

the countdown is almost complete. race day is almost here. just writing this causes my heart to palpitate and my hands to feel weak. i have been pretty calm and collected up until now. i am not sure what really is starting to freak me out.

tonight at dinner, i was attempting to explain to my husband my anxiety symptoms. as i was doing so, it hit me that i have felt this way before. it took a few minutes of mental contemplation to figure out when, in the past, i have felt this exact same way. it hit me. public speaking. yup, feels the same HORRID way.

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